saythatyoureintome

people always say that everything is going to be alright or it’ll all work out, but what if it doesn’t. it can’t possibly be alright every time. i know that it isn’t. what if it won’t be alright, what if something in my life doesn’t work out. what do i do? no one ever told me “it might be alright, hopefully it will, but sometimes it just won’t and you have to learn to be okay with that”. honestly, i wish someone would have. or maybe i should have just knew better. maybe i would have tried harder. in anything i did. maybe i wouldn’t have settled on the fact that everything was just going to be okay. i think i was just naive. how could i honestly believe that when there was times when i was struggling so much and felt like i had no one. now i’m just scared. of everything. scared that i am screwing up my life. i don’t know where i am going or what i am doing and i wish that was okay.

even after nearly eight months, i still get butterflies when you kiss me. <3